4:10 p.m.
Being Wednesday afternoon,and the start of my weekend, I had to check the state of mind as I left the jobbie today. Really tired and crabbit, and not good at all.
I put some elastoplast on the fractured mind by doing two hours in the lobby. This reminded me of ra bliss, and ra heat, and ra rapture, which I will surely experience to an even greater extent tomorrow. For tomorrow is mine, all mine! Tomorrow the Domestic Bliss goes out in the evening and I don't have to see anyone all day. Flatheids work on the Thursday and they never bother you then. What a wonderful prospect!
By looking out the window I can see that the skies might open and great droplets of rain fall to the earth any minute. Time to get the rowing boat out, Jack! Row for the allotment and, if it doesn't rain, set fire to newspapers and stare into the flames!
God preserve us from the flatheids, lead us not into temptation, and deliver us from the demon drink, and any decent drugs, amen!
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Just out of curiosity: When did you start meditating, and when did you start meditating for such Herculean amounts of time in a single day? I'm still at the point where an hour on an average day is impressive.
Somebody! I started meditating when I couldn't sleep well. I think I was about 33. I just built it up. People said 20 minutes. Why? I got lots of red pulsations up the back, etc., around 40 minutes, and tried to sit for an hour every Saturday, with some every day, but not much, especially at first. Then I started trying to sit with a straight back and I couldn't do that for an hour. I started getting ra bliss, or at least a bright whiteness when I started doing three sessions of half an hour each. Like, breakfast, lunch, teatime. This was when it all started to work. It was usually the tea time one when I got some unusual stuff, the white light, etc. (This is with closed eyes). I taught myself to meditate so I've never been able to do it right. But it's just gradually built up. By my experience three times a day is a minimum. Also, I started with mantra (susquehanna). There are lots of good reasons for concentrating on the breath, but I've always thought that might be a brutal way to start off. I like mantra. If you have nice feelings, you should associate them with your mantra and then when you say your mantra, the pleasant feeling should arise. Would that be true? And it's easy to tell when it's not there. Also, you can say mantras to yourself anywhere, anytime. I suppose you do that with the breath as well, but it's got to be harder in a busy street, for instance. Yajrayana is also known as mantrayana, oddly enough. Anyway, the point was always to get ra bliss straight up when you closed your eyes and started. It's like reeling in a big, big marlin. It takes time.It's usually not right in my face when I've been a bad boy!! I couldn't meditate in a lotus till I was 40, by the way. I'm sure the thing is to stick with it. Do what suits. The Dalai Lama says you can count your progress over decades. You should have plenty of time. I might not have! And I think it's supposed to be enjoyable. Whatever you do, just don't stop! Also, you need the analytical meditations to deal with the world when you're not meditating. They should take care of afflictive emotions. The Dalai Lama said getting rid of these may take eons, so let's all hope we started a bit earlier! Hotboy
Hotboy! Thanks for sharing all that. Very interesting. Seems like you were getting bliss states almost right away. I didn't realize you were self-taught either! I reckon you might be some sort of Buddhist saint.
I feel pretty confident about my own "progress" in meditation practice, if it's appropriate to call it that. Perhaps a better way to put it is that I feel like I'm on the right track. Based on the reduction I've experienced in afflictive emotions and the increase in the appearance of the brahma-viharas, mainly. Nothing total, but enough to be quite noticeable. It may be that it never gets any deeper for me, which I could accept, but I suspect I'm barely at the surface of things. Still, it's amazing what even a little meditation can do. Can't imagine I'd have stayed sane without it!
Somebody! If I'm a buddhist saint, god help us all! Hotboy
Is "nothing exists outside your mind" a mantra, a koan, a haiku or what?
Albert! It's a phrase. No, it's not! It's got a verb. Remember those? It might be a principal clause. That's a close relative of an insanity clause. Hotboy
Somebody! If I'm a buddhist saint, god help us all!
Exactly! ;)
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