Sunday 8:20 p.m.
After a week of no drink or drugs, I've just come back from buying myself a can of wifebeater (cold) and several bottles of Erdinger (in the freezer now!)
When I haven't been meditating, sometimes I've felt exhausted and I don't know why. Well, I've been trying too hard, methinks. Too much of the rod to the back here, Jack. Oh, you might say. Oh again! He goes to work for two and a half days a week and he's exhausted. Try working down the fung pits and see how exhausted you are!
I don't think I've got a disease. It must be trying too hard when I'm doing this juju. The mind has to be like a guitar string: not too tight and not too slack. (I don't think they had guitars in the Buddha's time, but you know what I mean!).
I tried to socialise yesterday. I cycled in the rain to see my chum Poisonous. It's not far, but I was lying there on his carpet being exhausted. Poisonous was quite animated for Poisonous, and then Shiva showed up and he was positively chipper. When I got back to the flat, I lay on the couch and felt that clingy way you can be when you're exhausted, then did ra bliss and fell into a deep sleep. The Domestic Bliss wakened me up to go to the movies, which I'd agreed to do since it's cheap and I wasn't going to have any drugs or drink.
We never got in. So we went to see Transformers which seemed to star the captain of the Rangers Football team, or his wee brother. There's a bit at the end of this movie which is too long with too much shooty shooty and too many motor cars flying through the air. Being still exhausted, I closed my eyes for a moment or two.
A lot of funny stuff happens in your body when you're doing the vajrayana. It's not even the body that a flatheid would recognise, but a lot of funny stuff happens in there anyway. Maybe that was making me exhausted, I thought. Some weird shit going on that exhausts you. Good and bad stuff can happen, the boy says.
I thought it was worth it. It's so amazingly wonderful to be doing this vajrayana juju that almost anything is. So you get a bit tired as well. Overtired. Your guitar string is too tight. Well, a few beers, and tomorrow I'll still moida da bums!
With acknowledgements to the digger who's name I couldn't find on google on Saturday morning, I thought of this. This is maybe why I've never tried to write poetry....
As I rode into Ballarat
I met a man whose heid was flat
When I asked him if he could be told
He said those hills are just as old as yonder plains
And that was that!
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9 comments:
hey badboy sounds like you could do with a laugh.
what did rahotboy say to rahotdogseller at ra pictures?
Make me one with everything!
sending you roasting hot vibes from the south, you´re a hotboy you can hadle them.
loveandpeacexxx
Michelle: Great to hear from you, Michelle. Dead right about needing a laugh! That gave me one! Hotboy
I put the fatigue down to the combination of returning to work and to the nights closing in. It's part of the turn of the year and will change! PS The Big Wan tells me there's a lot of how's-yer-father in the epic of Gilgamesh.
Ion: Maybe I'll read it then! Poisonous said it was another example of what a bummer life was, but that was just him maybe. Hotboy
HB - seriously, over time I have noticed that northerners' reports of tiredness, etc, often coincide with the same thing happening here. We here had also been feeling unusually washed out, but since Tuesday or so that has lifted, is it the same for you? My religion says it's due to variation in sun-spots or solar wind or whatever. Cosmic rays. Or cangeover between seasons.
Of course, everything has to balance up, so just as often I notice that we have the opposite experience to the northern hemisphere. I rest my case.
I'll try the DB probably at 11pm your time in the next coupla days, if you're sure that won't diturb anyone. I could phone again at your tea-time but middle-of-the-night here is a bad time to deal with robots.
michelle - that was rather good.
I'm starting to like the cut of Poisonous' jib. Mind you, it's taken decades.
I say!
You should consider getting up before the sun, and having ice showers on the hour, every hour. Never tried either myself, but the England cricket team swear by them.
MM III
Mingin'! That would do the trick! I'll need a personal trainer first though, to waken me up! Hotboy
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